Yea Baja, I am the same, no wife and kids, just my dogs. I just went out and mowed the lawn, KC will jump on the tractor with me and ride the whole way, it makes it kind of hard to steer but thats ok, I just held her and it made things a lot better. I'll tell you what though, a good cry sure helps, I know I am not done but for about an hour I was more or less out of control. I did tell Tara to find Sienna, my last chocolate lab, and tell her how much fun she had with me, Sienna can relate to that. I hope they hook up and play...and wait for me. I sure wish they lived longer but it is kind of fun starting over after a while. 37, I felt the same, in the end I thought I would throw all the money I had into her but then I remembered that I would be doing it for me and not her and it would not be fair. I wish I knew what went wrong, she was in perfect health always, never a cough or sniffle. She only went to the vet for stitches (from trying to run under a truck) and a blown ACL from running in the snow. I just wish my stomach would get better, it is horrible right now. Thanks for everything, I have chimmed in on every dog that has passed on this site and I am member #472 so it has been a lot of dogs. Thanks again to all.