My sincerest gratitude....
 

My problems seem small to that of AudacityChick’s. My sincerest condolences regarding the drowning death of your father. I said a prayer for you.

I would like to thank everyone for their warm wishes, thoughts and actions especially Puder, DanL and Shockwave.

Indeed, the situation could have turned very ugly. I believe the police have the cell phone number of the guy. If so, I am sure they are keeping an eye on him. (Visit a child porn site and see how quickly the cops show up at your door.)

I brought the entire situation down upon myself, and I apologize profusely for the chaos I created. I freaked out and had a complete nervous breakdown after the near miss at the race, and I self-medicated with an enormous amount of alcohol (three times the legal limit, so I was told). I was alone, and I was scared. I was having flashbacks of the incident. I must have called at least ten people including Will Smith down in Florida and my ex-husband. No one was around.

It started out kinda as a joke with me asking anyone who had a blender to come over and drink with me. I was drinking undiluted mudslides by the pint - one for each race boat in the first start.

Anyone that knows me knows that I am the high strung nervous type that you don’t want around in an emergency. Add the tremendous amount of stress I have been under this past year, and you have the perfect storm.

I thought life was going to be a bed of roses after I left my husband. I was wrong. This is the first time in my life I have been on my own, and it has been a real learning curve. It has not been easy at all.

I’m being treated for anxiety and depression from which I have been suffering for a long time. I have an appointment at Columbia/Cornell University hospitals (http://www.nyp.org/) tomorrow thanks to a big client with big connections, and I might not be coming home for a while. Hopefully, that won’t be the case, but I was told to put my affairs in order. As such, I do not have time to individually respond to all the people who posted and sent e-mails many of whom have eluded to similar problems regarding anxiety and depression. Thank you for sharing your stories. I don’t feel so alone.

Puder will be taking over my business, maybe permanently (my choice). He’s meeting with some of my clients right now as I type. I’m not sure of anything anymore. My sister Gloria will be opening my e-mails and keeping me up to speed with things.

Did you ever want to crawl under a rock and die? Well, that’s what I feel like right now.

I appreciate all the kind thoughts.

All my love and best regards,
Jennifer

Jen,

Keep your head up and your heart right, and all will be well. You're in our thoughts and prayers!

Mike

JEN


good luck


Mike merola

Our hearts and prayers go out to you, Jen.

Get well soon !!

Jen, just be sure to take care of yourself. It sounds like you are.


I'm just glad you are back and hope that soon you'll be back for good. You know you've got our prayers.

Mark

Jen

Do whats right for your self, get well soon.
GOOD LUCK!!!!!!

Russ

Jen -- You have nothing to apologize for. Being on your own may be tough right now, but it can be very fulfilling. Don't crawl under the rock, climb it!

You'll be fine.

Jen, NO ROCKS, you don't need to hide from your friends....... so glad to see you post and feeling a little better. You have ALWAYS had good and inspirational things to say , and a helpfull hand to everyone on this board. This will pass and you WILL be a stronger Lady for it. Best wishes on your sabbatical. Looking forward to your return. Bill & Julie Jolley

Jen
 

Please dont crawl under the rock and go away. We need women in boating. other wise it would just be a sausage fest:eek: but most of all we hope you will be OK Charlie

Dont let it get the best of you!!!
Your better than that, you can climb this hill just like the rest of us.
everyone gets down points in their life believe me I know.
I have used those down points and bad experiences and learned from them. You have to try to make this work for you. Turn it into something totally positive if you can.
Time heals all wounds is a true statement but each wound can hurt worse than the next. This is just a bump in the road of life and with all of us here pulling for you, you will be just fine.
We are all here for ya and want you to pull through this.
If ever you need anything from anybody, im sure there would be a line around the block of people waiting to help you.
If you need anything or just want to talk, email any one of us, we are all here to help
[email protected]

Anyone else want to join the email list for our friend here?

Jason

PS feel better soon

keep your head up and your thoughts positive! you have more friends abd people sincerely worried about you than you could ever imagine. you are part of the OSO family, you can call us anytime for ANY reason especially just to talk so you dont feel alone. Good luck and take care of yourself, things are getting better already;)

Rob Riggleman
[email protected]

Jen, EVERYBODY has problems at some time in their lives. I know how you feel and have been there before.
You'll get through this just fine and will be stronger when its behind you. Take care. :)

Jen, Hang in there, things will look up for you. You have good friends here.

Jen

Apologize for nothing! You can beat it, you can win!

I did.

Watermoose, aka Mark

No apologies required....

The most important thing now is you and your road to recovery.
Get well, be strong, stay loving...

marc

No apologies are necessary. Take same time, do what's best and right for you and you'll be fine. It all just takes time and we all can be a little impatient through various varieties of what could be fit under a "tough times" umbrella. (If you will)

I'm sure you're grateful to those that assisted, and to those who are currently assisting.

ps..make sure you inform your customers about Puder's spelling habits :D:D:D (Just kiddin, Brendan, someone was gonna do it! LOL!) I'm sure he'll do anything he can to make everything work out in the end, for the best.

Mark

Jen, hang in there!
 

I am glad you are seeking help. I wish you all the best and a speedy recovery.

Wannabe

We are all here for you Jen!!! Good Luck! With all of us here, you will never be alone again!!!;)

Hey Jen, The important thing is getting better and we're all here to support you! Look forward to your return when the time is right. Many have been through it and gotten stronger because of it. No need to feel like crawling under a rock, you are a strong person, that is why you are still with us.

See you soon!!! Prayers and support.

V

Jen, I think everyone is just glad you are O.K. and we know you will come out of this fine. Hang in there, get well, and then come back to your big Ol' happy family here on OSO. You will be missed and prayed for while you're gone.

Good Luck

Jen,
Remember that saying"It's darkest just before dawn" Well I think Monday morning was your dawn. You sound like you have a positive attitude at this point.:D Keep it up...everyones routing for you:D :D :D

Cal (Mopower)

Jen,

It's only a season---it will pass. So you fell down...we ALL do. Get back up, brush yourself off and keep on going------that's the true sign of a winner! Glad you're okay.

I am praying for you. God bless :) Jeremiah 29:11

Hang in there Jen , with the things you have posted on the board and the countless hours you have spent helping others there is no doubt you have a wonderful heart. Even heros need a break sometime i think we'll all be waiting for your return.

Jen its great to have you back, Trust me I have felt the under a rock thing and its not worth giving a second thought:rolleyes: About a year from now you will be lookin back and laughin?

Get well soon, Jen. Do whatever it takes to beat this.

Jen

sometimes things get the best of us. Just remember that your OSO family is here :D

hell i like riding my bike to NJ. Next time lets make sure it for a happier occasion ;)

Your Friend,

-brendan

Jen,

Ditto to what everyone has said. At times, we tend to look at our problems, rather than look to the problem solver. You know who He is, and you know what to do. "When you get to the end of the rope, tie a knot and hang on, because God will be there for you."

Get well Jen,

Steve

Jen: Long ago in Dive School wewere told "There
are no Rocks to Hide under
ONLY Stones to push aside"
Your a strong person!!!!!
and you will pull out of
this.
Your friend.
Mike J.

Yea,
What Steve David said, he always has a profound statement. Get well soon:D :p

Robert

Good luck Jen!! You can do this!!

Take it one day at a time:)

Jen,
I wish you the best. I can see from your posts that you are a very kind hearted person. Good things will come to you. I am glad you are able to get the help you need. Give your recovery a 110% of yourself just like you have given the charities you have helped.
God bless,
Dan

Jen,
Life is not an easy road. We are all delt some bad cards. No one ever said life was fair, But life is better enjoyed. Be strong and beleive in yourself, know matter what people say or do.
Good and bad thing's are just a fact a life.... Boat accident's, Bad ex husband's etc. You can't let the bad thing's keep you down, you have to let them go.
Think positive and of the future.
You seem like a kind, caring, beautiful person. You have freinds here.
Hope to see you in Miami in Feb, or World's.
Get well, and be strong!!
Remember,Chic's Rule!! LOL!;) :p ;)
BG XO

Jen,
Reading your posts I can tell you are a strong and determined person.
Don't let depression get to you. Walk with you head up, tall and proud. Focus on getting well. Use the same determination you used when you were just starting your business. That's what it'll take to get past this. You can do this.

I know, I've been there.
There was a time when I was one half step away from being homeless. I was broke and facing the fact that I was going to lose everything I owned. Was into drugs and booze. Depression was so bad I crawled under that same rock and hid. There's a four year period of my life that's just a blurr.
A good friend of ours had a long talk with me, slapped me around a little and woke me up. He made me realize that I had a beautiful wife and a little child that depended on me.
With his and my families help I cleaned up, straightened up and learned to hold my head up and look life right in the face.
I overcame all my problems and came out a stronger person.
I'm a survivor!
I've been able to handle anything life throws at me.
Problems are challenges. All you have to do look at the situation and figure out what it takes to resolve it.
It's one step at a time.

Now it's your turn.
One step at a time. Before you know it you'll be running at full speed again.

Remeber, you have friends here.
Keep us posted.
Take care and get well soon.

Bob Kellum (Iggy)

Depression and anxiety are nothing to mess with. It is scary when you actually feel that your mind is seperate from your body and the mind will always be more powerful than the body. If you ever want to get back on track you must cure this problem.

Good luck and we will see you on the other side.

OSO

Jen It took the death of a close friend for me to realize that.

Your life is a gift that can be taken away at anytime so ENJOY IT and overcome any problems.

Hang in there Jennifer...you've got alot of support from the people on this board...and alot of people pulling for you to get well soon.:)

Hang in there Jen ...our prayers are with you...DAVE:D :p ;)

Jen,

I am glad to see that you are doing better, we are all here for you... expecially whan you need to talk, keep your chin up.

God Bless,
Heather
Speed Girl

Jen:

We all have Crosses to bear. Some are bigger, uglier, and heavier than others. Right now yours looks like it's about to squash you. Don't let that happen. With professional guidance and your own resources that God himself gave you, you can learn the techniques to not only carry this Cross, but to run with it!

Your self-objectivity is impressive.

We're rooting for you.

Michael